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November 11, 2025October 28, 2025

Living Through the Pain

Hello Friends,

I was reflecting the other day on how do we live while experiencing a broken heart. With everything going on in the world, we may also be experiencing loss, disappointment, betrayal, or grief. It can feel overwhelming. I used to think that if I closed myself off, I wouldn’t have the experience any of it. Yet, that is not the case. If anything, it would pile up with each incident, thus causing a volcano effect when I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

I hate feeling heartbroken. I think more so than the average person. When I feel my heart has been grounded into sand like crystals, I take it really hard. It seems I go into a dark, deep depression, blaming myself for allowing my heart to be open to the person that broke it. This doesn’t seem normal, or it is?

Over the years, I’ve had to figure out how to live with a broken heart, otherwise, it would have killed me. When experiencing a broken heart, my immediate reaction would be to end it by any means necessary, including suicide. I would think to myself, dying is better than walking through this pain. The pain would be that excruciating. I had to choose between life or death. One would think this would have been an easy decision. I mean, I have a lot to live for; my children, my career, my health, God. But when the pain is spewing from my pores, it would seem that none of that mattered. Until, I decided to submit to God.

One day, I begged God to please help me. I want to live, but I don’t want to feel this pain anymore. His answer was simple, quiet, and loving: “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV.

Interesting…. “….my power is made perfect in weakness…”. That is wonderful! So you mean to tell me that through Christ, there IS healing, peace, and restoration when I am weak? When I am hurting? Through my weakness, that is when Jesus is most powerful in me? This means I don’t have to do anything but rest in Him and He will take care of the rest.

Things that I learned during my weakest moments of darkness and sadness:

1. Humbly bring our pain to God- God already knows our hearts and he is not surprised by our pain. Yet, honestly speaking to Him allows us to pour our heart out and not hide behind a veil of pretend strength.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18

2. Remind ourselves that Jesus is compassionate- Jesus went through heartbreak himself. Jesus himself wept, was betrayed, and suffered deeply. When we feel alone, remember that Jesus faced all of the things we are facing today. Not only does he understanding, but he feels what we feel.

“He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.” -Isaiah 53:3

3. Lay our burden at the foot of the cross- Remind ourselves that we are not in control of things we cannot fix. We must surrender our pain to Jesus in order for him to carry what we cannot. He was literally made for it.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” -Matthew 11:28

4. Stay in Gods Word daily- God’s Word is like medicine for the soul. Reading scripture daily will bring light, healing, and restoration. Here are some scripture to meditate on everyday:

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” -Psalm 147:3

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him.” -Romans 8:28

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.” -John 14:27

5. Surround yourself with faithful support- God often heals our heart through other people. We are not to isolate ourselves. We are not meant to heal alone.

“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:11

6. Allow your pain to become purpose- Healing doesn’t mean forgetting. It means allowing God to transform your pain into wisdom, compassion, and strength. One day, our stories of heartbreak will be someone else’s source of hope.

“What is meant for evil, God meant for good.” – Genesis 50:20

As I navigate through this broken season, I must remind myself that this is for a moment and in this moment, I have a faithful, loving Father ready to pour all of His love and mercy onto me. When I talk to Him, almost always without fail, I feel the weight lifting off of me. The pain may still be there, but the fact that He is also there makes it bearable. Thank God for Jesus.

I pray that if you are experiencing a broken heart, that the Lord comes to comfort you by wrapping His loving arms around you and give you peace. Here a prayer that you can pray to help you get through:

Heavenly Father,
My heart feels heavy and torn. The pain of this loss weighs deeply on my spirit. I come to You because You are close to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit. Lord, wrap me in Your loving arms and remind me that I am never alone. Heal the wounds that only You can see. Replace my sadness with peace, my confusion with clarity, and my hurt with hope. Help me to forgive where I need to, to release what I cannot change, and to trust that You have a greater purpose for my life. Teach me to rest in Your timing and to believe that Your plans for me are still good. Restore my joy, renew my strength, and fill my heart with Your perfect love that never fails. In Jesus’ name, I pray,
Amen.

November 5, 2025October 23, 2025

Following the Rules vs. Following Jesus

Hello Friends,

Today, I was led to read Romans 8: 1-4 NKJV that states:

“There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do in that it was weak through the flesh, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, on account of sin: He condemned sin in the flesh, that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.”

There is so much to unpack in these four verses. Here is a quick breakdown.

If we believe in Jesus, we do not have to live in guilt or shame.
It is because of Jesus that the Spirit of Christ gives you eternal life, and we are saved from the power of sin and death.
We are not expected to live by the law because it cannot save us from death. Only the death of Jesus could save us from eternal damnation. Jesus came in human form and paid the price for our sins.
The demands of living by the law are no longer our responsibility. The only thing we have to do is live by the Spirit and not the flesh.

So what does it mean to live by the Spirit and not by the flesh? In everyday life, that means being in a committed relationship with Jesus, and we are no longer judged under the old law. We are free. We simply have to allow Jesus into our lives and let the Spirit take over. We are not expected to follow a set of rules as they did in the Old Testament. We are forgiven for being sinful creatures, which is our nature, because we live in a sinful world.

Did you know that one of the leading causes of death in whales is drowning? The whales get entangled in fishing gear, preventing them from coming up for air. Since whales are mammals, they need air to breathe. That is why whales have to come up for air at least every 5-15 minutes during shallow depths and 8-50 minutes during deeper dives. Typically, whales stay above water for approximately two minutes before diving again. This is interesting to me. Whales dwell in the sea, yet they were not made to be of the sea. Still, they carry the tools of survival—blowholes to breathe, fins to glide, and smooth skin to move with grace through the water. This is how I think of us. Although we live in the world, we are not made to be of the world. We live in this world, but we were created to belong to the world. God has given us survival tools – His Word, His Spirit, and His grace – to help us navigate in an environment that is not our true home. He sacrificed His only Son through His great love so that we can rise above this world and not allow it to swallow us whole.

So what does following Jesus and not following rules look like:

Following Jesus requires following Him and His teachings, not a set of rules. This is a gift given to us by God through grace, not something we can earn by “doing the right things”. It is less about “I must follow this rule” and more about “I want to be in a relationship with Jesus”.
- Being in a relationship with Jesus is like being in a relationship with anyone that you love deeply.
  - Feeling safe emotionally and physically
  - Open communication
  - Having their best interest at heart
  - Support and encouragement
  - Having fun
  - Encountering deep intimacy
  - Sharing shared values
Following Jesus requires being transformed by grace and not performance. Our inner man changes because Jesus changes our heart from the inside out. We are not required to “follow the rules” to earn God’s favor. It is already given to us through His mercy, grace, and love. There is nothing that we do to separate us from the love of God.
Following Jesus requires us to be motivated out of love and freedom. Being led by the Spirit is being led by love, mercy, and justice, not living by literal rules. We are embracing the values he encompasses.
Following Jesus is about having an ongoing discipleship. It is a journey. It means continually learning, transforming, and being guided by the Spirit, not the flesh (the world).

For me, I am relieved by this. We currently live in a world where we have to follow rules day in and day out; at our jobs, our governments, the law, our children, school, etc. We are always under a lot of pressure to follow rules and regulations. It is wonderful that we are given grace, love, and mercy free of charge. And what’s even better, we are allowed a free trip to Heaven by grace and not by being “perfect”. Thank God for glory.

This is probably a lot of information, so I appreciate you reading my thoughts. Please remember to pray for one another and love each other as Christ loves us.

October 29, 2025October 22, 2025

Standing Firm at the Sight of Fire

Hello Friends,

Today I was led to read Daniel 3, the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego and the fiery furnace. I love reading this story because it reminds me how faithful God is and how much He loves us. If you are unfamiliar with the story, here is a quick rundown. There was a king named Nebuchadnezzar who built a statue out of gold that he wanted everyone in his kingdom to worship when music played. Anyone who didn’t worship that statue he threatened with death, specifically, was thrown into “a burning fiery furnace” (Daniel 3:6 NKJV). So one day, a messenger came to Nebuchadnezzar to tell him that Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego were refusing to worship the false god (the golden statue). Nebuchadnezzar became enraged (Daniel 3:13) and demanded that the messenger bring the three friends, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, to him at once. Nebuchadnezzar immediately asked the three friends, “…it is true, O Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, do not ye serve my gods, nor worship the golden image which I have set up?” (Daniel 3:14 NKJV). Nebuchanezzar plaining stated in verse 15 that if Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego do not worship the golden statue, they will be thrown in the fiery furnace. Now here is the interesting part, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego responded, “If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up.” (Daniel 3:17-18). In other words, their faith was so grounded in the Lord, they believed in His power to save them from the fire. But they also accepted that if God chose not to save them from the fire, that would not waiver their faith. They were committed to standing firm in God’s goodness and faithfulness.

So, of course, Nebuchanezzar was furious and threw the three friends in the fiery furnace. Yet, something happened that the king and his followers did not expect. Not only did Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego not burn in the fire, but there was a fourth person in the fire described by Nebuchadnezzar as “…and the form of the fourth is like the Son of God.” (Daniel 3:25b). How amazing is that? Not only did God save them from a fiery furnance, the “Son of God” was with them. Can you imagine having the Lord by your side during a moment where you could be terrified? But that’s life right? We face firey moments and God offers His peace and grace through it all. We are never alone during moments that are meant to scare us. Just like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego, we are given everlasting peace. “Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always in every way. The Lord be with you all.” (2 Thessalonians 3:16).

One more miracle occurred as a result of this extraordinary event. Not only were the three saved from the fire, but the event also made King Nebuchadnezzar a believer. “Blessed be the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Adeb-nego, who hath sent his angel, and delivered his servants that trusted in him, and have changed the king’s word, and yielded their bodies, that they might not serve nor worship any god, except their own God.” (Daniel 3:28 NKJV). How miraculous! Nebuchanezzar gave up his own pride to worship our Lord. Hallelujah!

How many times do we find ourselves in a fiery furnace? How many times do we feel lost or confused because we feel hopeless? Guess what, friend? We are not alone. We are not futile. We are not lost. God is with us. Jesus is with us every step of the way.

“And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” — Matthew 28:20

“Do not fear, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” — Isaiah 41:10

“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever…”

— John 14:16-17

Be hopeful, friends. You are not alone. Lean into God and pray that you feel the presence of the Lord. Remember, just because you don’t “feel” Him, it doesn’t mean He is not there. He is waiting for your invitation into your life. He is loving Father, waiting to hear your voice. Talk to Him as you would a your best friend. He is here to listen and comfort you while blessing you every day.

Thank you for reading my thoughts, friends. I pray you all feel the love of Christ every minute of every day.

October 22, 2025

Living Your Best Life Through God Given Gifts

Hello Friends,

Writing has been on my mind almost daily. I think about all of the things I can write about and how they may help people who come across my blog. Yet, somehow, I seem to talk myself out of it. Coming up with excuses as to why I shouldn’t write: “I’m too busy”, “I’m tired”, “No one is going to read it”, “No one will want to read my thoughts”, etc., etc. However, I can’t seem to get it off of my mind. I find the more I ignore the desire, the busier my mind becomes. My brain is flooded with a tidal wave of ideas, reflecting on ways I can share my thoughts with the world.

Then, something miraculous happened. God spoke to me, reminding me that the desire to write has been placed in my heart for a reason. While checking my email, I ran across a scripture from Rick Warren that read, “The Lord gave me this answer: ‘Write down clearly on tablets what I reveal to you, so that it can be read at a glance.’” Habakkuk 2:2 (GNT). It felt as though God was sitting beside me and whispered in my ear, “Write down clearly on tablets what I reveal to you…”. Some may describe it as a light-bulb moment, but I describe it as a clear message from Jesus to share the revelations that He has been giving me with the world. The lessons I learn aren’t for me to gate-keep, but to help those on this side of heaven who are going through what I have been or are currently going through with my gift of writing.

So of course, I had to dig deeper into Scripture. Hearing God’s voice so clearly is such an intimate delicacy. The more I hear it, the more I yearn to be in His presence. It is a safe and loving place to be in. As I’m sitting here, I am trying to figure out something to compare it to, but there is nothing on earth that would equate to sitting in the presence of the Lord. Understanding one’s purpose in life is what every human strives for. Some are fortunate enough to have a clear understanding of what their purpose is and how to use it. Some have to search, trial and error, to determine a reason to wake up every day and get through life. So when that time comes when our purpose has been revealed, it is like seeing the face of a beautiful bride after her veil has been removed for all the world to see.

“Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.”
1 Peter 4:10-11

I’ve known for over half my life that my purpose was to help people. The question of helping people has left me feeling lost. I have attempted so many avenues of what I thought that help should look like. And what I thought was failure may have been me leaving a residual footprint of inspiration and love that resembles the love of Christ. That is my hope anyway. But writing… writing has always been my first love and now I know the purpose of that love.

Thank you for reading my thoughts. I pray that God reveals your path in life and gives you the strength to follow through. I love you all.

April 8, 2025

No Title is the Title

Ah, it feels good to be back after a long hiatas. Since my absence, I was able to earn a master’s degree in healthcare administration and become gainfully employed as an substitute teacher and a crisis response clinician with the metropolitan police in my city. I love what I do and the goals that I have been able to achieve.

For those of you who have been with me for a long time, you know that my love for writing can only be compared to a love that exists beyond expectations, circumstances, or personal gain. So, when I go a long time without spending time with my first love, I begin to feel it in my soul. The urning for inspiration to write becomes unbearable.

Next, I struggle with “what do I write about?” In the past when i get writers block, I would submit a discussion that is research based. I would pick a topic, research the topic, and report my findings. This way of doing things created content, not sentiment. Or maybe it did. Hopefully, I was guided by the Holy Spirit to find and research that particular topic so that it can reach the masses. I dont know, either way, I digress. The past few weeks, I’ve picked up a pen and pad, desperately hoping my soul would pour itself onto the page, but nothing comes out. It feels hallow, like something is missing. Then, Eureka! I know what is missing…pain!

Throughout history, pain has been in the center of many great works created by artist who were struggling with emotionally and/or physical pain. Famous examples would be Dutch post-impressionist artist Vincent van Gogh, who created masterpieces such as The Starry Night, struggled with severe mental illness and ultimately documented his experiences in his paintings. Another example is singer and performer, Billie Holiday, whose soulful voice graced us with Strange Fruit. Yet, it was her struggle with substance abuse and painful life experiences that allowed her to connect with the hearts of her fans. And like so many others, I too, find myself creating works of art when pain is in the passenger seat.

So, here I am, having the desire to create, but no longer have my side seat companion. I felt trapped between the desire to write, yet struggling with the emptiness with feeling like I have nothing to say. Then a situation arose that forced me to question my identity, my values, and the intentions of certain people in my life. Self-reflection is the only disposition that I can allow at this moment to better understand my role in things going side ways in this situation. Yet, during my moment of self-reflection, I had a “a-ha!” moment followed by the strong desire to write. Thus leading us here. FI-NA-LLY! I have something to write without the nuisance of Pain patiently waiting to come along for the ride of discovery and enlightenment. Finally, I have the desire to be present with myself and share my thoughts, while becoming free from the constant mental chatter.

I know what you’re saying. “Ok, Ashley, get to the point already. What do you want to talk to us about?” Well, my good people, it’s very simple: severance, specifically with people.

Back in the day, when someone would leave my life, in one way or another, I would selfishly think it was fault and take the demise of our union personally. I would plague myself with questions, fixating on thoughts that did not matter and blaming myself. I convinced myself that I did something wrong for this person to distance themselves from me. However, during this season of becoming upgraded Ashley 2.0 model, my perspective has shifted as to why people exit stage left from The Ashley Show. Let’s dive a little deeper into this thought.

I recently had someone tell me that they felt they couldn’t be friends with me anymore due to something I did. To me, it wasn’t wrong or malicious. It wasn’t done out of spite or deception. Instead, at the time, it seemed like a way to resolve an unrelated issue we were dealing with at the time. Yet, the other party, obviously did not feel the way. The person thought the decision I made was intentionally derespectfully to their pesonal situation, resulting in feelings of betrayal of trust and the dissipation of our friendship. The old Ashley would have taken this breakup very hard. And I use the word breakup because, although this person and I were friends in the most platonic way possible, I deeply cared for this person and sincerely thought we were best friends for life. So the process of not talking to this person, hanging out with this person, and sharing initimate convesations with this person is going to become an adjustment. I would have blamed myself, convinced there was something I done have done better during the friendship to keep it going. Thank God I am not the old Ashley.

The upgraded Ashley 2.0 model believes in the saying, “everything is for a reason and a season” or how God politely explains in Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 NIV:

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:

a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.”

In other words, things happen when they are supposed to happen and it appropriate to let them go. In this paragraph, God didn’t explain the “whys” behind the purpose and benefits of his timing. That is more so, what we learn during life experience, right? I am currently in a season of loving myself and the journey that the Father has me on. I was always so hyper focused on the goal, I missed the fun along the way, the reasons and seasons.

I am also learning that when God says He’s a jealous God, He means it (Exodus 20:5). God’s displeasure is not compared to human jealously, but his inate desire to have a faithful relationship with His children and disapproval for idolatry. In my experience, if we don’t remove the false idol ourselves, God will certainly do it for us. Or He may let us sit in it and learn our lesson from disobedience. Either way, it is for our God whether we feel like it is or not. For the sake of this article, I would use my friendship with as a displeasure to God. I depended on this person for what I should have been depending on God for. God wanted my attention and He tried, in many way, to get it before the decline of our friendsship. I saw signs of toxicity and chose to ignore them. This friendship, through my decisions, was pulling me away from God in a unhealthy manner.

I will end this article with God is so, so good. When I began working on this piece, I was hurting in ways that were new to me. It seems that just when I think things or people cannot get worse, they do. Yet, I am glad because I am a better person for all of it. Even through the trials, I am enjoying my life and each day that the Lord gives me to make better decisions., to build stronger relationships, to help those who need it. I’m learning that each person has there own battle to face. Some people face their battles with integrity and tenacity. Some people face their battles with malice and blame. And both are ok because no matter what we feel or how we feel it, the Lord has the final say.

Thank you for reading my thoughts. I love you all. Please remember to pray for yourselves and each other.

April 23, 2023April 9, 2025

Let Me Reintroduce Myself!

My name is Ashley, and I am the founder and owner of Healing with Harotian. I started Healing with Harotian in 2017 when I was struggling with Lupus Nephritis, Bipolar Disorder I, and PTSD.

I believe my purpose in this life is to serve God’s Kingdom by helping and loving on His people. I am a survivor of domestic violence and suicide, and I want to encourage people to continue to fight for their lives by allowing God to come in and heal their hearts. I am a living, breathing example that God’s faithfulness and mercy are astounding, and we must take advantage of them to move forward out of the darkness the enemy wants to keep us in.

Currently, I am offering a digital healing journal that we (the Lord and I) created. The Healing Journal has:

Daily scriptures
Leading questions and prompts
Space for notes and prayers
Weekly check-ins

Please contact me at healingwithharotian@gmail.com for your free copy.

Many blessings!

Ashley Tara with Healing with Harotian

October 12, 2022October 12, 2022

Saying Goodbye to the Broken Heart

Right now, my life is in a wonderful place, but the season of struggle has made itself known on my doorstep. We all face seasons of struggle. This is the time to grow into something better; something greater and stronger. One mantra I live by is anything worth having will require a fight to obtain. If good things come easy, everyone would be exactly where they want to be in life. Only if it were that simple.

Currently, this season is showing me how far I’ve come. The old me would only be able to concentrate on the struggle, thus creating a snowball effect of depression and self-loathing. But the new me, the seasoned me, can only see the progress I’ve made and it is giving me the courage to continue to fight, to not give in to the desire to return back to an unhealthy coping mechanism.

Right now, I am suffering from a broken heart. I used to think that the reasons mattered. I would try to treat the symptoms of the broken heart versus treating the broken heart itself. Right now, I am learning to mend my broken heart. In order to mend a broken heart, I have to take it to the only person who knows how to heal such things, Jesus. He knows what it’s like to experience such pain and continue to genuinely love through it. This is the only course of action to accomplish my goal. My goal is to live in love and forgiveness and not discontentment and bitterness, thus these are the consequences of not mending a broken heart.

If you are living with a broken heart, please take these words to heart, “feelings are the ultimate liars“. While dealing with a broken heart, feelings will betray you every time. Lean into your faith, whatever that may be. The faithfulness of God continues to remind me that He is my Healer.

I must admit, I was beginning to give in to the pressure. But then I was reminded of WHO I AM and WHOSE I AM. I belong to the Creator of all living things. I am virtuous, kind, and loving. I am strong and courageous with the power of a loving God and 10k angels to back me up. I remind myself every day, every hour, every minute, every second of these glorious things. I remind myself that this too shall pass and I will be even better for it.

Thank you for reading my thoughts this morning. Have a wonderful day and please remember to pray for one another.

January 29, 2022January 24, 2022

He Did What He Promised

I am so thankful for where I am in life right. I’m even more thankful that I can recognize that I have been blessed more than I could have ever asked for or imagined. (Ephesians 3:20)

This time last year, I was living in a small three-bedroom apartment that was infested with memories of the destruction that lead to my divorce. It seemed like no matter what I did, a bad spirit lingered throughout each room. Now, God blessed the kids and me with a much larger home, a large enough space to make new memories, and a new space to heal. Here, everything is new. There aren’t holes in the wall that force me to relive who put them there. Yet, I am surrounded by bright colors, large windows supplied with natural sunlight, and most important the presence of Jesus.

“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it! -John 14:12-14

Living with a mood disorder is difficult for not only the person but the friends and family of said person. I fully understand that if I want to have a good relationship with my loved ones, I have to get this mood disorder under control and I cannot do that without divine intervention. There have been moments where I thought this disorder was going to kill me. There were other moments where I felt this disorder would keep me in a slumpy funk for the rest of my life, but now that has all changed.

I see the blessings clearer now. I am beginning to see more of my worth now. I am beginning to see the past in the rearview mirror and have hope for what lies ahead.

Our Father not only answered my prayers, but He went above and beyond to prove to me I AM NOT ALONE and I AM WORTHY OF HAPPINESS AND PEACE.

When we know simple truths about ourselves, it helps disarms the enemy from ever using it against us again. It won’t be easy and I know I will be tested, but I feel like if I continue to do what I’ve been doing, then it will continue to work out for my good.

Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.”

Amen! I don’t know if I’m saving lives, but I do know that sharing the good news is a part of my life purpose. And I can do so through my blog. I’ve started two other blogs before this one. I wasn’t very consistent on the other blogs because I didn’t have a purpose to write. I would just write any and everything that came to mind. Yet, from the first day I created Healing with Harotian (previously called Harotioan Essentials), I knew I wanted to help people by sharing my struggle and the ways God has brought me out of it. I went into this asking God to be my partner in the creation and content of Healing with Harotian. And all He required of me was to give in to the desire to write, share my heart and mind with fear of judgment or condemnation, and in return, clarity, peace, and self-love, among many other blessings.

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many other brothers and sisters.” -Romans 8:28-29

I believe this verse is talking about everyone. Everyone can show God’s love by being a blessing to other people. One of the reasons why I stayed in a dangerous relationship was because I honestly thought life wouldn’t be better than what I currently had. I had no idea that one day I would be surrounded with everything I have today; great friends, unity, forgiveness in my family, and good health.

I say all this to say, if you’re in the dark, keep going, keep believing, keep praying. HE HEARS YOU! He will answer you. He will guide you. He will never leave you. If you feel alone, it is a trick from the enemy. The best advice given to me a long time ago when it came to prayer was, “talk to Jesus like he’s the homegirl”. Knowing that I can have casual prayer with Jesus took a lot of pressure off of me. Thus, going to him when I’m in need felt lighter and easier. The Holy Spirit will teach us how to pray by guiding us to the truth. (John 16:13)

Thank you for reading my thoughts today. Please remember to pray for one another.

Ashley, Healing with Harotian

January 22, 2022January 12, 2022

Transforming the Butterfly

Healing. Curing. Transforming.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. -Romans 12:2

“…transformed by the renewal of your mind” What does God mean by renewing my mind? How do I renew something that has been implanted into my character for 36 years? Although the answer may be simple, it is extremely hard to accomplish. There are plenty of ways to renew our minds; meditating on scripture, practicing positive self-talk, and eliminating toxic people/things from our lives. Another way to renew our minds would be to surround ourselves with people who live by this scripture, that way, we have support when it becomes difficult. It’s not for the weak or the lazy. It’s for the determined. It’s for the desperate. It’s for the faithful.

God has placed wonderful examples of what transformation looks like when He has had a hand in its creation. A popular example would be when caterpillars transform into a beautiful butterflies. Personally, caterpillars aren’t much to look at. They live basic life eating and eating and more eating. That’s the purpose of those little buggers, eating plants for the duration of their lives. Some begin to undergo metamorphosis to transform into a butterfly.

When I think of it, I can’t help but relate. Just think, caterpillars leave their comfortable lives to become something better. They sit still allowing the chrysalis phase to do its thing. No eating. No moving. Just sitting. The chrysalis phase can last from three weeks to three years. Either way, once they emerge, they are not only beautiful, but they can fly! Their world has gotten so much bigger. Their appetites have gotten sweeter. They transform into something they didn’t know existed. They allow nature to take its course. They trust the process.

So, I think that is how we can renew something that has been implanted into our characters for years. We can trust the process. We can allow God to do what He needs to do because he wants our transformation to be more beautiful than we thought could ever exist. He wants us to FLY!

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. -Ephesians 3:20

I don’t know about you, but I want to fly. I’m ready to fly. Good thing that I’m determined, desperate, and faithful. Thank you for reading my thoughts. Please remember to pray for one another.

Best Love,

Ashley, Healing with Harotian

January 16, 2022

Slow and Steady Wins the Race

Not to long ago, I was wallowing in self-pity, trying to figure out how did I get so far from God. One day I woke up and found His presence to be faint. I was lost. I was confused. I was carrying the world on my shoulders. ” How did I get here?”, I would ask. Once again I found myself begging for Gods love, begging Him to take this weight off of me, begging for Him to save me. I begged, “Father, please meet me where I am! Please forgive me for putting the world before You”. Once those words were said out loud, I then realized where the disconnect began. As many of us do, I drifted into what the world wanted from me instead of living in the truth of who I really am.

The other day, my son and I were doing homework together. One of his spelling words was “hare”. He proceeds to ask, “Mom, what’s a hare?”. Once I told him it was another name for a rabbit, I went into the story about the tortious and the hare. I ordered it on my amazon audible app and we intently listened to the story about how (**SPOILER ALERT**) the tortious triumphantly defeated the hare because he was so determined, he didn’t allow distractions to get in the way of him reaching his goal. The hares problem was that he assumed he would win because technically rabbits are faster than tortious’, and because of that arrogance, he was convinced that he could indulge in those distractions and still come out on top.

As I was listening, it hit me. I have been living my life like the hare. And God knew it. As I cried out to Him, the plan He has for me was set in motion for me to realize I have been living like the hare. I’ve been assuming that I have to be further than I am, thus pushing myself until I crash and burn. And when that happens, I lose. My mental state is on the fritz, my overall function becomes almost nonexistent, along with the desire to stay hidden from the world. Once I get to a place where I see a glimmer of hope once more, I start all over, working hard to get back to a place of peace.

I never once considered to take it slow at a pace that suits me and that it is ok if my life is not in the same place of my friends and family. I now see that every step I’ve taken from the time I was born up until now has prepared me for this moment. There is no better teacher than life experience. Although I am only 36 years old, I’ve seen what this world has to offer. Maybe even too much. And trust me, it’s nothing to brag or be proud about.

Now is the time to be the tortious. Now is the time to take control by setting healthy boundaries to make sure we aren’t trying to live up to the worlds expectation. Throughout the story, the tortoise became tired and hungry, but he kept going. Fortunately, we have one advantage that the tortious didn’t have. Yahweh! When we get tired, when we became famished, when we feel the odds are against us, the answer isn’t to look for the world for answers, but look to the Word.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

A couple of months ago as I was crying out for God to save me, He pointed me towards the story of the Samaritan woman. Once I obeyed, I was able to see that Jesus wanted me to sit at his feet, allow him to remove the burdens I was carrying from shame and guilt. As I meditated on that, now He is pointing me towards embracing my journey. Now that I think about, I’m not sure if I asked God to reveal what journey I’m on. The only thing I know is meditating on His word and listening to it as much as possible was transforming me, is transforming me.

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. -Romans 12:2

It wasn’t until this morning that I realized the season that God has me in; forgiveness. People have been coming into my life that I thought I would never see again. Even though, people are also disappearing from my life just as fast.

I recently had a conversation with my father whom I sore I would never talk to him again. I thought the conversation was going to lead me down a dark place, but it didn’t. We were able to be open and honest with each other, thus prompting healing to begin. I never hated my father. I just pretended he didn’t exist. Now I see that is a very unhealthy way to live. Somehow, after having a conversation with him, I feel lighter and now I get to practice creating healthy boundaries with someone that I have a lot of history with. I am able to live in the gray of our relationship instead of living in the black and white with expectations. I will be able to say, “yes, I’m mad at you, but I’ll talk to you tomorrow” versus “yes, I’m mad at you and I never want to see to you again” every time there is conflict.

Slow and steady wins the race. We are all on our personal journey, whether if you believe in God or not. We live our lives like the hare by allowing ourselves to become distracted. We are all here to do something more with our lives, rather than filling the pockets of Netflix and Hulu execs by streaming shows and movies a million times a month. We could spend that time investing in ourselves, not allowing major distractions to detour us from answering the major question in life: why are we here? The desires of your heart are there for a reason. If there is something you’ve been thinking about doing and you cant stop thinking about it, then I think that is a great indication that you are meant to do that. Whether you succeed or fail, at least you wont be stuck with a “what if”.

Jesus said, “You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!” -John 14:13-14

I asked for Him to meet me where I was, instead of expecting me to meet Him where He is, and He did just that. I asked Him to save me from myself, invading thoughts of hopelessness and negetivity. He did just that. I asked Him to help me get to where He wants me to be, that I can do so with a healthy mind and heart. And He’s doing just that. I want to be clear, I don’t want to make it seem that God is a genie in a bottle. He grants us our prayers because He loves us. He wants better for me. I was in a place undesearving of a princess of the Almighty God the Father. He wants different for us, but He also has to make sure we want it for ourselves. Thus, allowing us to get to a point where we’ve hit rock bottom and we need no one but Him. Allowing Him to do what He always promises to do, take care of me.

He has taken care of me by sending people in my life who genuinely love me. People who are sitting at the sidelines during my race, cheering me on, no matter how slow I am going. I’ve been blessed with people who will tell me the truth versus going along with every bad decision I want to make.

So now, I am the tortoise. I will embrace this season of forgiveness while moving at a pace that is healthy for me. I thank God that He wants to see me free from a unforgiving heart. I’m grateful that I am that important enough and loved enough. If He loves me this much, then be encouraged that He loves you all the same.

Thank you for reading my thought. Please remember to pray for one another.

Signing off,

Ashley, Healing with Harotian

January 8, 2022January 8, 2022

Unashamed

As I’m sitting on the edge of my bed, tears streaming down my face, all I can think about as my husband is telling me he wants a divorce is, “why me?”. “What did I do to deserve this? God, where are You in this?”. I begged my husband not to leave. I begged and pleaded for him not to leave our family. I promised him, whatever I did, I would fix it. But it was going through one ear and out of the other. I felt abandoned. I felt embarrassed, but most of all, I felt ashamed. “What kind of person has two failed marriages before the age of 35”, I would ask myself. “What are my kids going to think of me? What will my family think of me? I’ll never find someone who loves me as much as my husband loved me. I must do everything I can to get back”, I would cry out. For months, I blamed myself. Two major questions I would ask God, “why me?” and “how can I fix this?”. I went to marriage counseling. I read what seemed like every book on marriage I could find. I allowed him to use me, placing me in compromising positions for his own benefit. My husband fooled me into thinking the breakup was my fault and there was still time to make him come home, I just needed to continue to preform my wifely duties, all while living his life as if he were single. The more time that went on, the more ashamed I felt. I was doing things for him that made me really uncomfortable, sometimes it would even be illegal. The last thing that shame would allow me to do is look beyond my own circumstances and see the grace in the situation.

Prior to my husband leaving, he was physically, emotionally, and spiritually abusive. Every time my husband hurt me, I would cry out to God asking Him to change my husband into the husband that I thought he was suppose to be. I thought God was suppose to do what I asked of Him. I thought no matter what, God was for marriage and that He would do anything to fix it. But shame hid the truth from me. Shame had me convinced that the abuse I was facing at the hands of my husband was well deserved for all of my sins. Shame had me convinced that I deserved every attack, every verbal beat down, every hateful thing done to me.

That was almost three years ago. Thank God, he delivered me from such abuse. He taught me that what happened to me was not my fault, nor was it something I deserved. He is teaching me that I no longer have to walk around with a shameful heart. Sometimes I feel that I’m not good enough due to the things I have done. Sometimes, I feel that I will be alone for the rest of my life due to the things I have allowed to happen to me. But everyday, Jesus continues to teach me that that feeling ashamed is not my burden to bear. Shame is not apart of who He wants me to become. He is teaching me that what the enemy intended to harm me, God is going to use it for my benefit. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” -Genesis 50:20

We aren’t meant to live with shame. Shame is a tactic used by the enemy to keep us trapped, feeling hopeless and defeated. Our Heavenly Father is not the father of shame. He is the Father of love, glory, and mercy. He cleanses us from our sin and saves us from ourselves. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9

A year after my husband left, I had hope for the future again. He is helping me not feel ashamed or embarrassed. He is given me grace so that I can forgive my husband for the hurt that he has caused my family and I because he, too, is a child of God. So I end with this: “Following Jesus does not end our pain, but it does transform it. Although God never causes our pain or shame, he can use it for our benefit, for his purpose, and to help other people.” -Christine Caine, Unashamed

January 1, 2022January 8, 2022

Defeating Goliath

Hello Friends,

Most people know of the story of David and Goliath. A biblical story, starring a young Shepard boy named David, who believed that with Gods help, the Israelites would defeat the Philistines, whom had a fierce giant fighting for them by the name Goliath. The Israelite army did not believe that Goliath could be defeated. But David did. A small boy with no military experience defeated Goliath with three things: a rock, a sling shot, and faith. All three defeated Goliath. At the end of the story, it was the Philistines that ran away in defeat because Goliath was their only plan they had to defeat the Israelite army. (1 Samuel 17)

Mental illness is my Goliath. For so long, I’ve been living like the Israelite Army; living in defeat. Thinking that there was no way out. Thinking that Goliath has defeated me and I have no where to run, becoming still in one place because Goliath wont let me move forward or move backgrounds. I’m not sure why I thought it has to be one way or the other. Before now, I never considered that there was a third option; trusting in God with what He has armed me with and leaving the results to Him.

My biggest problem is, I look around me, comparing my journey to the journey of others. I compare what they have been armed with versus what I’ve been armed with. I would complain about how small and insignificant my weapons were, screaming that it wasn’t enough to get me out of the hell I was living in. And no matter how many times God saved me when he turned nothing into something, I would still overlook the obvious; faith and trust in Gods plan.

My scripture for this month is:

“And I am certain that God who began the good work within you will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” -Philippians 1:6

This month, this scripture is important to me because no matter how hard things get, I have to remember that God will never forget about me and the work that he is doing in me is good. I know that I am meant to be apart of something large in Gods kingdom, we are all. I have to remember that I have to be David. I have to face my Goliath full on with what God has armed me with and faith in Gods plan.

I have plans. I have dreams. And a lot of times I allow Goliath to stomp all over them. But not anymore. Recently, I have learned something that changes my whole perspective on this fight called mental illness.

“You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it.” -Margaret Thatcher

Thank you for reading my thoughts. Please remember to pray for one another.

December 15, 2021April 9, 2025

Well-Watered Woman

Hello Friends,

Oh how I missed thee? Every time I open WordPress and press that wonderful “write” button, I feel like I’m home. I miss writing so much. I miss sharing my ideas and experiences. I miss reading your words as well as you reading mines. Of course, I’ve allowed life to get in the way of doing what I love to do. Other times, I get discouraged; wanting to write and create, but not wanting to hear the sound of my own thoughts. In order to write, I have think about what I want to say and a lot of times, I want that voice to be silent for as long as possible.

Either way, I always find myself back to my first love; words! I greet you this evening with the intent to share something with you that I find myself clinging onto for hope, prosperity, and redemption. For the past few months I’ve lost my way. Anxiety and depression is more present in my life than ever before. In 12-step programs, they teach us that “depression is self-obsession”. Make sense to me. Anxiety is when we worry about the unknown. When I think about it from a rational perspective, it is a waste of time and energy.

I began making New Years resolutions, starting with putting more effort in my healing and adopting self-love and self-care. Having a family, it hard for me to think of myself. And when I do have time to treat myself to a little self-care, all I want to do is sleep. Tonight, I found out that is one component of self-love and self-care that I have not thought of. This component will not only help me love myself more, but it will also take care of the other ridiculous new year’s resolution I set for myself.

On three different occasions, God brought me to being the “well-watered woman”. This story is presented in John 4:4–26 of the Bible. It speaks of a Samaritan who ran into Jesus at the well near her town. She ran to the well to get a jug of water. Jesus spoke to her (which was technically taboo at that time). The key lesson that we take away from the women at the well is that, she had so much weight, she struggled with so much sin, she needed to be “cleansed”, made new and broken free from the strongholds that had a grip on her life. After Jesus took her burdens and her sins, she ran back to her village to tell everyone what he had done instead of keeping it to herself or believing it was just a coincidence.

What I love about this story is that she was a “nobody”. According to the world, she wasn’t “special” by all means. Matter of fact, they probably would have stoned her for even talking to Jesus. But just like that, he took it all of the weight of her burdens from her. She came for a jug of water, but left with hope, prosperity, and redemption.

Since God gave me three different signs, I believe my place is right beside Jesus at the well. I’ve cried out so many times to have Him remove my strongholds and afflictions from me, but tonight I was reminded that Jesus is the only one that can remove them and my love for him and myself will grow exponentially. I am reminded that it is not me who walks myself through the storm, but he that gives me the strength to walk through and survive. Not only does he give me strength, but he calms my worry and fear and refocuses my mind from the depression.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
— Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)

I love you all so much. Thank you for reading my words and continuing to come along side of me during this journey. Please remember to pray for one another.

September 7, 2021

Coincidence? I Think Not!

Hey Friends,

I’ve been using this automated voice to take over my podcast for a little bit. I hope you don’t. This will only be temporary. So, let’s jump right into it.

A couple of weeks ago, I received a daily Bible reading devotional in the mail. I always plan to use devotionals to help me spend time with Jesus, but it never seems to go that way. I usually find a way or an excuse not to take a few minutes out of my day to talk to my Him. So, when I received a the devotional in the mail, I was determined to sit down and commit to reading and studying for the next 30 days.

Day one was about the story of Jesus and the Samaritan woman. If you are unfamiliar with the story, here is a brief synopsis: Jesus had stopped by Jacobs well to rest, when a Samaritian woman came to gather water for her family. Back then, it was unheard of for Jewish men (Jesus) to associate themselves with someone like the Samaritan woman. She was married five times and was then living with her boyfriend at the time she met Jesus, which was also very taboo.

“Soon a Samaritan woman came to draw water, and Jesus said to her, ‘Please give me a drink.’ v.9 The woman was surprised, for Jews refuse to have anything to do with Samaritans.” -John 4:7, 9

This woman was a recluse of the town because of her lifestyle. She was accused of being a prostitute and was greatly condemned for her immorality. She chose to draw water at the very hottest of the day in order to avoid contact with the other women responsible for drawing water for their families as well.

After I read the devotional, it made me feel like God was saying, “Ashley, rest at the well. Bring all of your worries to My Son, Yahshua.” After that of course, I forgot to pick up the devotional pamphlet to finish the rest out the rest of the month. I wasn’t at all bother because I was sure of my instructions to “rest at the well”. Rest from the stress of the world. Rest from having to be in multiple places at once. Rest from treating self-care like its one more thing I have to check off the “to-do” list.

A couple of weeks later, I’m shopping at my local resale shop. They always have the best books. Anyway, I came across this Bible study called, Journey to the Well by Vashti M. McKenzie. After reading the first couple of chapters, I’ve come to the conclusion that God needed me to see this. I feel that He needed me to see:

“Jesus replied, ‘Anyone who drinks this water will soon become thirsty again. But those who drink the water I give will never be thirsty again. It becomes fresh, bubbling spring within the, giving them eternal life.'” -John 4: 13-15

I know when I’m running low because I feel depleted and drained; when I feel I have nothing left to give. I think that’s what Jesus meant when he said “anyone who drinks this water will soon be thirsty again.”

One thing that I have learned during this journey is patience and faith. I have to have faith in order to keep going. Without faith and hope, what is there to hold onto? Many of us are going through our struggles alone for no reason at all. Bottom line: we all need each other, even the broken outcasts.

Jesus transformed the Samaritan womens life. She was ashamed and driven by her fear and her past. Yet, a person who should have nothing to do with her according to society’s standards, transformed her life by giving her hope, which turns in faith, which turns into freedom. It’s easy to become a prisoner of our own desires. For example, I so badly wanted to move on and heal from my husband, I allowed it to control my life. Everything I did was to not feel the pain weighing on my chest every day, but I was neglecting other areas in my life.

Like my brother says, “Ashley, everyone has something going on” and he is absolutely right. And while I’m on this journey of healing, I want to stop to smell and roses. I want to enjoy the scenery. I want to celebrate the good, the bad, and the ugly. And I definitely want to break free from the “woe is me” demon. If you have the same goals, then let’s work together to make that happen.

I would like to share a warriors story of infertility. If you’re kind enough to listen to her story, I ask that you please pray for her and her husband.

“Your (me) post made me reflect on my own muddled feelings about not being pregnant yet. Each month during the two week wait, I tell myself not to get emotionally invested, not to overthink EVERY weird feeling and mistake it for a pregnancy symptom. Not to hope, dream about due dates and outfits and life lessons I can’t wait to share.

In over 15 months now, I’ve been disappointed to the point of heartbreak, so I know NOT to do these things. But I do it anyway, every damn month. And every time I get my period I do into a funk. I feel like Charlie Brown trying to kick the ball Lucy is holding, only to jerk it away. Rinse and repeat one month later. Why do I do this to myself? I’ve heard ALL the messages on trying to reduce stress and take it easy, but that’s something my mind has never been able to get on board with. Like you, I have tried various techniques to try to chill.

It leaches out into the rest of my life. I am now apparently bitter when I hear about women being pregnant. I feel like my life is on pause because it could happen at anytime, and it feels terrible to live in this weird limbo of the unknown.” -Anonymous.

First, I would like to say that I am so proud of this woman for speaking her truth. Fear is running rampant in our hearts and in our homes, that it makes it feel impossible to share ones struggles. Secondly, I would like to tell you that you and your family are in my prayers; the God I serve is more than happy to bless you with way more than you can ever imagine or wish for (Ephesians 3:20). Do not give up hope. Take this time to learn about yourself. Allow this time to connect more with your partner. If not, connect with someone who can be a support for you. But whatever you do, do not become a recluse. Find support.

I love you all and thank you for listening to my thoughts. Please remember to pray for one another.

August 24, 2021

Mental Illness Made Me Selfish

Hey Friends,

Recently, I’ve lost my voice, literally and figuratively. It’s frustrating and heartbreaking to say the least. Story time: The other day, I lost a friend over personal differences. I can’t help but to wonder if this friendship is just another casual victim to the mental illness that plagues my life every single day. This wouldn’t be the first friend or family member that decided to give up on our friendship or has forced my hand to give up because of the baggage I carry. I don’t blame them. It’s hard to deal with a person walking out their mental illness journey. But, this person was very special to me and I thought I was special to them. That part doesn’t matter. What does matters is how can I find my voice in these situations?

When I find myself in these situations, my broken heart takes over and I lose my voice. I lose the ability to defend myself if there is wrong-doing. I lose the ability to see the situation for what it is and not take it personally. I lose the ability to take the relationship straight to God and rely on His wisdom. I become immobilized. My mind is taken over with thoughts of what I could have done different to either save the relationship or to avoid the pain all together. I lose discernment and common sense. My main focus becomes “making the pain go away”. I become overly sensitive and and defensive. I internalize the negative thoughts and feelings I have about myself and feel as though everyone else feels that same way. I spend hours, sometimes days, trying to dig myself out of this pity pit I seem to get myself into. My mind understands that this is not reality, but my heart and my body aren’t on the same page; which then, takes over my mind. I become useless, then ultimately selfish. I think of no one but myself. I function only to “feel better” as much as I can. Heartaches destroys me. I don’t think this is a normal human function. Hearts get broken everyday. Why does it seem that mines can’t handle everyday mischief? Why am I a professional track star when it comes to heartbreak?

I would rather die than continue to live life this way. I’ve tried everything; psychiatry, therapy, God. No matter what I do, I continue to find myself in a prison of suicidal thoughts and selfish coping mechanisms. It’s normal for people to think that this is all an act, or the fact I can help feeling this way. For me, this is furthest from the truth. If I would a trillion dollars, I would give up every last penny to not feel heartache for just one moment. No feelings of guilt or shame. No feelings of despair and hopelessness. FOR. ONE. MOMENT.

Thank you for listening and reading my thoughts. I know it’s not the cushy, motivational content but today I just do not have the strength. Love you all. Please remember to pray for one another.

With Love, Ashley