I am so thankful for where I am in life right. I’m even more thankful that I can recognize that I have been blessed more than I could have ever asked for or imagined. (Ephesians 3:20)
This time last year, I was living in a small three-bedroom apartment that was infested with memories of the destruction that lead to my divorce. It seemed like no matter what I did, a bad spirit lingered throughout each room. Now, God blessed the kids and me with a much larger home, a large enough space to make new memories, and a new space to heal. Here, everything is new. There aren’t holes in the wall that force me to relive who put them there. Yet, I am surrounded by bright colors, large windows supplied with natural sunlight, and most important the presence of Jesus.
“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it! -John 14:12-14
Living with a mood disorder is difficult for not only the person but the friends and family of said person. I fully understand that if I want to have a good relationship with my loved ones, I have to get this mood disorder under control and I cannot do that without divine intervention. There have been moments where I thought this disorder was going to kill me. There were other moments where I felt this disorder would keep me in a slumpy funk for the rest of my life, but now that has all changed.
I see the blessings clearer now. I am beginning to see more of my worth now. I am beginning to see the past in the rearview mirror and have hope for what lies ahead.
Our Father not only answered my prayers, but He went above and beyond to prove to me I AM NOT ALONE and I AM WORTHY OF HAPPINESS AND PEACE.
When we know simple truths about ourselves, it helps disarms the enemy from ever using it against us again. It won’t be easy and I know I will be tested, but I feel like if I continue to do what I’ve been doing, then it will continue to work out for my good.
Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.”
Amen! I don’t know if I’m saving lives, but I do know that sharing the good news is a part of my life purpose. And I can do so through my blog. I’ve started two other blogs before this one. I wasn’t very consistent on the other blogs because I didn’t have a purpose to write. I would just write any and everything that came to mind. Yet, from the first day I created Healing with Harotian (previously called Harotioan Essentials), I knew I wanted to help people by sharing my struggle and the ways God has brought me out of it. I went into this asking God to be my partner in the creation and content of Healing with Harotian. And all He required of me was to give in to the desire to write, share my heart and mind with fear of judgment or condemnation, and in return, clarity, peace, and self-love, among many other blessings.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn among many other brothers and sisters.” -Romans 8:28-29
I believe this verse is talking about everyone. Everyone can show God’s love by being a blessing to other people. One of the reasons why I stayed in a dangerous relationship was because I honestly thought life wouldn’t be better than what I currently had. I had no idea that one day I would be surrounded with everything I have today; great friends, unity, forgiveness in my family, and good health.
I say all this to say, if you’re in the dark, keep going, keep believing, keep praying. HE HEARS YOU! He will answer you. He will guide you. He will never leave you. If you feel alone, it is a trick from the enemy. The best advice given to me a long time ago when it came to prayer was, “talk to Jesus like he’s the homegirl”. Knowing that I can have casual prayer with Jesus took a lot of pressure off of me. Thus, going to him when I’m in need felt lighter and easier. The Holy Spirit will teach us how to pray by guiding us to the truth. (John 16:13)
Thank you for reading my thoughts today. Please remember to pray for one another.
Ashley, Healing with Harotian